thediandras loves solitude : maybe its easier this way, just give and enjoy what we take.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

come to
http://all-i-need-in-this-life-of-sin.blogspot.com/

cause ive moved.

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

the first and the last

maybe i, am not meant to be happy. always the second girl.

Monday, January 15, 2007

thediandras resolutes

website website apa yang bikin sedih?

website apa?

siak-ng.

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gua yang sedih. 90% of other kids are ecstatic upon seeing their grades. almost horny. i think. you know how computer scientist are. heheh.

okay since it's the new year. every one of us must make resolutions right? dari yang pinter sampe yang bego. dari yang gendut sampe yang kurus. dari yang udah bahagia sampe yang depresi. dari yang punya pacar sampe yang nggak *nervous laugh*. well, you get my point.

numero uno.
GET a FUCKING B. will ya? stop getting C's!! Good God!

numero dos.
get off your couch. turn off that tv. FAT ASS. wait. i wished my ass were fat. okay. BEER BELLY!! imagine a beer belly without having to drink one drop of beer. yup. make the scale lean to the right.

numero tres.
stop being fake! oh godd YOU are so freaking FAKE! fake fake fake! i will stop : smiling when i dont feel like it, being defensive., being a weak, weepy, crybaby.

numero quatro.
enhance your wardrobe. translation : buy more clothes, handbags, shoes. buy it ONLY if you really really want it.

numero cinco
EARN more MONEY! goddamn it. please finally buy esia. selalu punya pulsa. jangan mintaa mulu kaya anak ilang! haha.

numero, wait. uno dos tres quatro cinco seiz. yeah. seiz.
be fabulous. be the envied alpha female. hint : WORK that ROTTEN brain of yours. just work it.

numero nueve.
oh just have a ball in 2007. go out more.

numero diaz.
prove it. redeem yourself.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

3rd time around. and i still suck

i couldve gotten better.
i couldve.
i had my chance.

now my grade point average is as sucky as my love life.
i understood, but then i just blanked out. now out of 7 classes, ive gotten a C in 5 classes. the other one might be an E.

ohh god. i suck.

maybe it was the side jobs, maybe it was the frequent class skipping. or maybe my brains just dead. rotten.

i mean. i HAD a chance. and i blew it.
i wasnt all blank like i was in the 1st semester.
i HAD it. i let it slip through my fingers.

i got a C in Fisika II? Come fucking on.
how much more of this can i take?

ohh god. ohh god. is this the best it gets? what do you think?
3rd time around and i still suck. suckity sucky suck.

you guys are probably rolling your eyes and says : ohh here she goes again with her deliberate, mych expected incompetency.

sucking is embarassing. and when people talk about grades, all i'll be able to say is. umm. well. i passed. and then maybe fidget with my shoelace or my hair, indicating i have no further comments to add. godd. i suck so much! i suck even more than last semester.

you know what would complete me? the only thing i need in my life right now?

is being good at everything that i do. not great. but at least competent.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

things that goes around, comes around.

yes. it's the time for triviality again, amigos.

i replaced all the bump and grind songs on my w550i with some mellow, semi-deperessive songs.

there's things called karma, and im getting mine soon. once, for snitching my friends' boyfriend, twice for being stupid, and ended up breaking up with him.

last last saturday. december 16th, i went to have dinner with jendral. it was his birthday, and everything else, though turned out not prefect, but he assured me everything was allright. i had fun then. i gave him a white, 9 circle frame, which had my pictures and our pictures and words like "all i need in this life of sin." and his picture with the biker gang jacket. i loved that moment. yup. i still feel that way. we both know it. we both just know it. and we're not afraid to speak our minds.

im up, no we're up in this roller coaster, where we come, get on, and after 2 or 3 rounds we get sick, but the next day, we find ourselves queueing in the line.

cut the bullshit, bottom line is:
i love you. and yes this is stupidity, but let's hope im not evil too.

guess what song this is from, it has been stuck in my head all day.

"i wanna know what makes you cry. so i can be the one who always make you smile."